My day......

....was boring as usual.. well stressful yet quiet, hmm can those two words be in the same sentence?? Pretty depressing too actually, on the way to work all the news was about hurricane Katrina.. subhanallah, so many people dead, homeless, stranded.. I know Allah (swt) has his plan but that doesnt mean we should stop making duaa for the ppl there. I heard a guy being interviewed from there, he had rescued and elderly couple from their VW, surrounded by water and alligators. Subhanallah the courage Allah (swt) has given that man, unbelieveable... and to not even think of himself, insha'allah he will be rewarded... he said that his truck was filling up with water and he could see the gators waiting for them to die.

So, off that subject... what else is new?? erm.. well petrol prices are disgusting here.. dunno about the rest of the world... $1.049 I paid today.. there is an email goin around tryin to get the whole of canada & america to not buy petrol tomorrow. I dont see how it will help things, but i heard on the radio (I listen to alot of radio, lol.. when im driving long distances, my nasheeds sometimes relax me too much, so I listen to the news).. they said that the companies who own the petrol stations seem to be using this natural disaster as an excuse... subhanallah.. what all these ppl are going through and ppl just wanna make money..

So Ramadan is coming up soon... insha'allah by then Ill be in my own place and wont have to worry about my fastings insha'allah. Alhamdulillah this will be my 3rd Ramadan, Allah (swt) has made fasting easy for me, when I went through my first one I was so worried that I would faint in lectures or something, and sometimes I felt like that... sisters if this is your first Ramadan.. i strongly advise you to wake up for subhoor... it helped me a lot.. and I noticed that when i didnt wake up for it, I felt so groggy and uncooperative, which isnt good in the last year of uni. Plus.. if you read my other post for today about fajr.. well you have the advantage of being up for fajr too.. no missing your prayers insha'allah. I love praying fajr... I feel so peaceful and relaxed afterwards.. and I can totally concentrate more cause Im not thinking and listening for whos where in the house, everyone is asleep hee hee. I have some things to post for Ramadan when it gets closer insha'allah...

Anyways, thats enough from me for now.. insha'allah you will comment if you feel the need.. u know where I am if you want me.

Fi Amenallah,

your sister in Islam

assalamalikum sisters,

insha'allah this blog finds you all in the best of health and iman.. so what have I been up to?? Not much really... Working, as usual, I really have to sit down and send off some c.v.s somewhere cause this job is really wearing me down. I need to find a place too.. insha'allah im looking at some this weekend.. insha'allah i find one soon... cause i need my own space!!! Does anyone else feel like this with their parents?? Subhanallah, I luv my mum to pieces, but she just cant leave me alone.

So Ive got a busy few weeks planned.. insha'allah on saturday Im going to Canadas wonderland on saturday with one of my bessie mates over here which should be fun!! She has a few things for me to pick up, some books and stuff insha'allah so looking forward to that. Then sunday insha'allah go and see some apartments, monday is bank holiday Wahey!!! Then next weekend... insha'allah go to wonderland again (gonna get a season ticket, there i can definately go to muslim day next year insha'allah) then sunday might pop down to niagara to see my mums friends.. theres a nike outlet down there.. so might look for some new trainers too..

Also ive decided.. that starting now.. Im gonna do something islamic every week insha'allah.. this wk Im learning a new surah.. Al-Kauthar- a river in paradise.. I know the english alhamdulillah, so the next task is the arabic insha'allah... so make duaa that i sort this out by the end of the week... I wanna know more surahs to choose from in my salah, especially for Ramadan insha'allah.

Well thats enough from me for now.. Im sure i wanted to say more, I was thinking of what to write on my way home... well I did mainly what i wanted to do and that was post the photos... check out the crafts projects on my pictures... I made this cross stitch for a special sis of mine alhamdulillah... I love the design and Im so proud of it, insha'allah ill make more. And the pic on my profile, the new one in dark blue hijab.. I dunno if you can see it properly, but its hand painted masha'allah soo pretty and a bargain at $8 alhamdulillah.

Fi amenallah

Your sister in Islam

assalamalikum sisters,

so a new day over with.. what news do i have today? hmm.. I reckon you are all getting bored of my day accounts, so gonna chill a little after this i think. So when i went to wonderland on saturday towards the end of the evening the topic was brought up about some sikh kids and my friends religion (hindu) she was asked if she could marry a white guy, you know the usual questions. One thing she distisgushed was that she couldnt marry a muslim... Id heard that before so it wasnt anything new there. Then someone else mentioned she though that she was muslim not hindu, then commented that i was... but it was said so quietly i didnt think anyone had heard. So today the hindu girl came up to me.. looking like she wanted to say something, so i asked her if she wanted me she was like.. erm yeh, looked really uncomfortable.. so she goes, you know on saturday when i mentioned that i couldnt marry a muslim, well u didnt take offence did you? I was like.. why woudl i take offence.. I aint asking you to marry me. And she was like well u already knew that didnt u, I agreed cause like i said before, I did... but alhamdulillah someone else knows im muslim in work just wondering if the other couple that was with us know now too... I always feel better when ppl know cause then i feel like i can be my own person.. dya know?!

Well thats about all thats happened in my day, still havent heard from the job yet... dont think anyone has faith in me or anyone else in my house. I heard my mum on the phone last night telling her husband that she didnt think i had gotten it... she was like.. well they told her they would get back to her in the next few wks, which ended on friday just gone.. and its the government for heavens sake... its not like they will never reply and just pretend I dont exist. Insha'allah i get this job... I really really want it, it sounds so perfect for me, and its in the middle of toronto too... close to an islamic bookshop.. and closer to variety.

Anyways, Ive just got home and I have to pray Asr... insha'allah ill chat to you all soon...

Fi amenallah, your sister in Islam forever insha'allah

Assalamalikum sisters,

back again... been busy all weekend. Went to Canadas wonderland on Saturday, didnt get home till 9pm... so tired.. then today Ive been at a CPR course for St. Johns... passed that and got myself a pretty little certificate with it alhamdulillah. So thats good.

Was on my way to the centre this morning and got pulled up for speeding... naughty me, 67km/hr in a 40 zone... hang my head in shame... I prayed that they wouldnt put points on my license, alhamdulillah, thanks to the power of Allah (swt) she took the speed down to 55, no points, and just over $50 fine... I was so thankful for that.. and i made duaa all the way to the centre.

On my way home, I hadnt prayed Dhuhr cause theres nowhere near the centre.. so I went to the big ISNA masjid & school they havent been open lately outside prayer times cause ppl keep stealing the donations. So i got there and it had just opened alhamdulillah. So I prayed my 2 rakaats for thanking Allah (swt) for giving my the time, place and ability to pray there... prayed Dhuhr and got to pray Asr in congregation too alhamdulillah.. there werent as many people there as there usually is but alhamdulillah I got to do it.

Well... I think thats enough for now, just found out my bank at home have cancelled my cards and my bank account cause one letter got returned to sender... subhanallah.. so insha'allah Ill be able to sort that out soon.

Make duaa for me sisters, insha'allah Ill hear back from the job interview at the Centre of Forensic Sciences this week.... jazakallah

Fi amenallah

Keep in touch, luv you all.... your sister in Islam

My reversion story

Salam, so this is an old post off my 360 blog, but Ive decided to write it out for now instead of giving it the date of when I originally posted it. Enjoy
So my story..... you got the time?? It all started when i went to university really.... mayb even before then. I was considering becoming a catholic before I left for uni to give myself a reason for something really. To be honest I cant really remember why i was contemplating it. I remember thinking that cathodicism was a stronger faith than christianity and I needed something stronger. But in the end I didnt and i carried on with my first year at university. So in my second year (2002) I met a guy, a muslim, who said to me once than he really enjoyed my company and that i should seriously think about praying 5 times a day, fasting, giving charity and thinking about things after this life. I remember thinking what does it have to do with him.... then I forgot about it. Although I couldnt completely forget about it, my university was in a predominantly muslim area with many mosques and islamic shops masha'allah.
So when I started my third year working in London it was just the beginning of another year. Until I found out that one of the women I was working with had become muslim herself masha'allah, and I cant really remember when but then I started looking into it more. Especially when she told me things that I couldnt handle. So I looked them up and found out that the things I didnt understand werent actually muslim issues that was when I found out she was an Ahmadiyya muslim, well if you can call them muslims. There are things I really dont agree with in that, so by finding out these strange things I was actually finding out more about Islam.
So I looked more into it on the internet and came across chat rooms and islamic forums... it was here that i met some very good muslims that have helped me on my travels alhamdulillah. I even found a new muslims project near when I was when i went back to uni, so I emailed them to see what they were all about, and they put me in touch with a sister who is very dear to my heart. At first she says she couldnt see us having anything in common, but alhamdulillah she gave me a second chance and we are very good friends now, she was there when i said my shahada (Oct 1st 2003) and has been there for me ever since, even when Im on the other side of the world.
Well, I think thats about it in a nutshell, i would love to say that my deen is growing stronger everyday but unfortunately I cant. I still havent told my mum, for fear of her reaction.... I know I should only fear Allah (swt) but until you have been in the situation....... well insha'allah i will tell her soon, although myself and a few people (including my cousin) believe she already knows she just doesnt want to believe it. Insha'allah things will be sorted soon, because it is killing me keeping the biggest thing in my life from her. But her opinions arent really your everyday open-minded opinions that would make this easy.

My blogging life

It started on August 19th 2005 over on my yahoo 360 blog, here is the first blog I ever made

"Assalamalikum sisters,

So this is the first time Ive ever done anything like this. I wanna do a big blog when I have myself sorted insha'allah and have time to myself, so this is really a try out.

Insha'allah it goes ok and i can keep up with things. Im not really a tell everything kind of person.. Ive always kept things close to myself and even though i get moaned at for being laid back i do tend to carry too much on my shoulders... maybe this will make me feel better and help me to get things out in the open insha'allah.

I promise sisters to keep this as halal as I can, to not back bite about my family, my sisters, talk about horrible issues that will get me worked up. But please be patient with me, and if you find something offensive, please let me know privately... no-one likes to be embarassed in front of friends. k? Jazakallah.

Well thats enough for now I think... Im a little busy this weekend but insha'allah Ill find something to talk about.

Fi amenallah, Your sister in Islam"