Random randomness

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Im still waiting for 2 postcards, one from Aalya and another from my friend Nashwa who went to Morocco recently :D Im excited about the prospect of receiving them and feeling jealous about their travels :P
As much as I love my home city of Liverpool, the travelling Ive done in my living places allow me to see the nastiness of the city too. Living where I am now, just outside of Liverpool where people who dont have the accent call themselves scousers and those with a part accent tell you they live in a different county than Merseyside and want no connections with Liverpool. I dont have a thick accent, but I still get taunted for it and people still know where Im from, those from here will say 'but youre not a true scouser' (regarding the less thick accent) until they ask what are Im from and realise its right in the centre - not on the outskirts of a different city like them. I like my city, I like what it represents and I like who it made me alhamdulillah. Now this isnt why I started this paragraph... being from Liverpool and living just outside I see how the youth try to be the stereotype that most scouse youths arent. I feel safe as houses in Liverpool, but walking through a field in broad daylight here, I feel a presence all the time. I hear the foul language of the youth here that I dont hear in Liverpool, I see the random spitting on the floor and total disregard for the health of those around you, I saw someone doing a David Beckham the other day (did you see the photo of him blowing his nose without a tissue in the middle of a game?) I see the disrespect of elders here and it sickens me.
In other way Im seeing this as a country thing too, people keep asking me do I miss Canada. And truthfully, now, yes I do... because I have nothing else to do at the moment, and I see things here that disgust me that I havent seen in the 4 years plus Ive been in Canada. I dont see dog muck on the floor or in a shopping centre (truthfully!!) I dont see the amount of litter over there outside that I do here. I didnt see kids hanging on street corners to only nearly fall over their beer cans the next day.
Im still waiting to hear about the job interview I had last friday, and I applied for a job today that (unknown to me when I applied) is the same company just a different department. So got lots of prospects out there, Allahu alim.
Today I realised that Ive put on a over a stone (US/Canada read 14 pounds) since Ive got back to UK. Ok, so I lost a lot of weight as some of you may remember over Ramadhan and some time after, now Im not the heaviest person in the world but when you get used to a weight for the majority of the time you remember its sort of hard when you move. Now Im not sitting on my bum all day, but obviously Im doing less movement than when I was working. So Ive decided, Im cutting out my processed foods, drinking only water, milk & hot drinks made with both (no sugar) cutting down on bread stuffs and insha'allah Im going to use my cousin's wii fit for at least an hour a day, starting from tomorrow :D this is my plan... I dont like the getting fatter feeling, Ive got used to my body shape and I dont like feeling the tightness on my jeans.
No new news about my uncle, hes still sedated, and still on the ventilator... his oxygen levels are up and down so no change really.
I overheard a conversation of an 11/12 year old (I know her age!) she said... 'Why would I want to speak Spanish? Im English' I pray this isnt a U turn in the youth of today.. not after we have fought so much to make people realise that un-English really isnt that bad

eyes

Yes Im in Oxford, but I wanted to tell you this without you missing out on the last blog :) So I changed the dates :D anyways, I had my eyes tested yesterday and wanted to tell you all... even at nearly 28 years old... im slightly long sighted in both eyes, but the doctor said not enough to have a prescription for correction :) Alhamdulillah

Apparently

Im no longer a 'young' person. I went to a centre today to ask what I was entitled to in regards to an eye test with being on JSA... she asked my age, then proceeded to tell me the centre usually deals with young people, that is 25 years old and under... how old do you feel? Made me think, people see an age as being old but I feel just as I did when I wasnt even 20.. just goes to show eh?

Im going to the doctors to have 2 moles removed at the end of the month. Allahu alim. Make duaa for me girls insha'allah..

And for everyone, Ramadan mubarak. I woke up for fajr this morning alhamdulillah, although a little later than i wanted.. I still got to make some scrambled eggs for myself, throwing them down my neck as the adhan was playing.. I have to look into whether we are supposed to fast from the adhan start.. usually I do finish a few mins before, and insha'allah I will be forgiven for this little rush :) I think Im realising that this month is long over due now and I cant wait to go to the masjid for jummah and for taraweeh this weekend insha'allah.

Fi amenallah

Its been awhile

Assalamalikum everyone,

so its been awhile since my last blog. Im not apologising though, my life has been pretty hectic lately and not in a pleasant way. Ive been booking train tickets for my forth coming trip back to UK which Im still excited about and looking forward to meeting up with some friends insha'allah.

As for the not exciting things, my mum was taken into hospital with suspected kidney stones.. they let her out with medication, until the pain just got too much for her and the friday after she was back in hospital with either burst appendix or rupture bowel pockets. They still dont totally know whats wrong with her and its now 3 weeks later, although she went to the doctors today and he thinks its more burst appendix, the infection had become a mass of infection across the whole of her cavity and she is lucky to still be here today alhamdulillah.

She celebrated her 50th birthday in hospital which she was really bummed about and I spent most of those few weeks visiting and phoning her. Subhanallah its so hard to do from 90mins drive away. Anyways, the day of her 50th birthday I phoned my grandad, my nana (grandmother) had been taken into hospital the week before and I was just checking up... he gave me the number to phone her bedside. My dad had already told me the day before that she had problems talking and it left her out of breath, he gave me the number at 7pm GMT so I told him i would phone her durin the day tomorrow when she might be feeling better. The next day i plodded around in the morning doing my bits, had a shower got out and saw my grandad had left me an msn message... so i wrote back and he said he was going to phone me. It was actually my aunties husband I spoke to and in a short story he told me my nana had died around 10pm the evening before. I knew before he even told me she had gone forever out of my life. The next few days where a whirl wind of booking tickets, sorting work out and picking my mum up from the hospital on the 30th

I went back to UK last week for 6 days for the funeral, it was horrible.. nice to see family, but horrible to see them in the state that they were in. I think I bonded more with my dad in that short space of time and insha'allah it will be remembered. Ive talked to them a bit since i got back to Canada, but i just feel so helpless and useless, although even when I was there I just didnt know what to say to my grandad, hes constantly up and down as expected and all I want to do is protect them all, but I cant and it pains me so much to not be able to.

Anyways, I cant sit here crying at work.. so Im signing off for now. Just to let you all knwo, Im still here.. with a much shorter friend list alhamdulillah and awaiting Ramadhan.

Fi amenallah, Ammena

My afternoon

Salam sisters, Ive been quite busy this evening and wanted to tell you all what Ive been up to. So the girl I car share with, shes gone to Poland for a month so Im driving on my own for the time being. Its nice, being able to leave when I want and do things after work. Tonight, after work I went to the gym for an hour... it was nice, I pushed myself a little bit more because well Id like to move into Ramadan in some sort of shape insha'allah. So i ran, cycled and did the machines, mainly my legs, arms & abs... heehee, what else is there to work on?? lol. Then I went for some food shopping, the gym is in the shopping centre, and bought quite good stuff. Watermelon, bananas, oranges, nectarines, noodles, potatoes, tomatoes, onions, some milk (which I drank on the way home), grapes and some bread... then I drove home, this was just after 6 so the traffic wasnt too bad alhamdulillah. Then I got home, unpacked the food, and put some washing in the washing machine. Checked my forum... 1 post, ate some watermelon & watched coronation street. Now im here writing this.
In relation to my... strengthening my deen thing, well I decided to forget about that list thing I made.. wasnt useful, Im just gonna write it down insha'allah. Anyways, I bought something the other day my new quran masha'allah its really good, it has notes about each chapter, arabic, english & transliteration, and footnotes.. alhamdulillah I love it. And also, I learnt the duaa before sleeping, I didnt realise but it was sort of sticking in my head bit by bit. Yesterday I went to a masjid to pick up a book i left there ages ago.. alhamdulillah I eventually found it, but before finding it we had to wait because there was a sheikh there giving a talk. I wasnt too sure whether it was the khutba or just a talk, and eventually realised.. so I was listening to some of the things he was saying and he mentioned the importance of saying this duaa before sleeping. Listen to this sisters.... Imagine... passing away in the night, you are pure because you should be clean (wudu wise) before you sleep but if you say this duaa you are even purer as if you where saying the shahada at the time of death... thats what I got from wot he was saying anyway, hmm... mayb I shouldnt write this if im not sure... ok, so anything wrong is from Me & shaitan, only God knows everything. Allahu alim.
Ok.. so that is what Ive been up to, nearly finished my shahada stitching too... insha'allah Ill have it finished soon. Keep in touch. Fi amenallah

Laser hair removal

just wondered what everyone thought about this subject?? Im thinking of doing it when I get abit of money aside insha'allah. Some places look ok for prices and I know I should go with a respectable company, how do I find that though? When I dont know anyone that has had it done... hmm.. Im thinking underarm and lower legs... thats what I usually get waxed and on a whole wont it be cheaper in the long run?? Theres a place in Toronto that do underarms for $149 ok.. so i would like to wax my underarms once a month.. at least, it doesnt grow that fast and lets face it, who do I have to look good for so it costs $15 each time I think it is... so at once a month it would take me 10 months for it to pay for itself.. and well I dont have to think about it for the rest of my life... hmmm.. it seems to sound better. I wish I could get my bikini line done, but Allahu alim.. with my legs I usually have them done once every 3-4 months.. cause they hardly grow, those who know me will vouch for this insha'allah... Ive waxed since i was a teenage alhamdulillah and only have hair on the front of my legs. Lemme know your opinions insha'allah.

Dont play with silver nitrate!!!

Listen to me sisters!!! Assalamalikum wa rahmatulahi wa barakatu