My news

Assalamalikum everyone, so today I woke up early for my hospital appointment.. its been 2 months since my last one and one month since receiving my new glove. I got there just before my time and saw the glove lady, she asked to see my scar and told me it still needs pressure, and there was me thinking my doctor would tell me its fine. Although I thought he might have told me that, I didnt want it to be finished with, because I didnt think it was finished (the scar I mean) and to be honest Im really self conscious about it. My mum doesnt help from everytime I take my glove off she tells me to hurry up and get it covered Allahu alim.

Anyways, he doesnt think its ready to come out of the glove, alhamdulillah.. and he asked if I have been told about some steroid injection, well... ahem.. you are my dr, did you tell me about it?? So then he was like, do you want it? so i ask the usual needle phobic questions, how big is it? will it hurt? what does it do? is it worth doing? answers: no, a little, releases the scar matrix underneath the skin to flatten the scar, yes. So I eventually agreed, after reminding him how I was with the drip needle the nurse nearly poked through my hand when I was supposed to get the graft. So he did it... twice, it bled a little and now its covered again... he said I will definately see a big improvement next time I go back, erm... why didnt you do it sooner then?? lol.. he said he could see a big improvement and that the mobility in my web space is the image of my good hand alhamdulillah... so thats my hand news.

On another topic... I booked my flights for going home this year Insha'allah I fly October 17th and fly back to Canada November 4th... so just over 2 weeks.. which gives me 2 and a bit weekends which is good.. insha'allah Ill get to see at least 1 match. Im also planning a few days in Morocco to visit a friend from uni and days down south. Insha'allah apart from this i wont be doing as much travelling as last time. I want to spend some time with my grandparents insha'allah.

Also, I found out yesterday that Ive been accepted for a new position in work. It basically what I do now, but in addition I will be working on the ballistics range too and its 12 hours shifts.. I only end up working 15 days out of a month, including 2 weekends.. but its more money and its what I want to do. It wont be for ages yet.. I was worried it would mess up my montreal plans, but he reckons a few months as I have to train someone to take over my afternoon shift.. oh yeh, cause I will be working 7am till 7pm...

Ok, thats it for now... sorry ive been soo quiet, just trying to catch up on things now my family have left canada. Insha'allah Ill have more to write soon. Tomorrow Im meeting a facebook friend at jummah in my masjid, so looking forward to that, oh and Im also going for my 2nd treatment of laser to my legs cant wait till thats all over and im hair free (well sort of) Take care peeps... Fi amenallah

my weekend

Assalamalikum girls... so whats been going on?? Well I received my mp3 player and I love it, its a little scratched on the front but nothing too major and still useable alhamdulillah. So Ive downloaded some lectures onto it, was a bit gutted cause you have to have the files saved through windows player and some of my bits are real player so it wont let me transfer them :( I had a good little piece on how to pray istikharah which i cant transfer so was a little bummed. Insha'allah Laylah is gonna point me in the direction of a few sites.. then I can get the quran downloaded, I also want to know how to organise it all just so its easier to sort through, you know Lectures, Nasheeds, Quran, Duaa then I will know where to find everything, but I dunno if you can do that, insha'allah. I had to pay extra duty for it coming into the country, another $22cdn but i paid with my uk account for the actual player so its all good. Got paid on thursday so transfered some money into my savings account to take back home with me to pay off some of my loan.

Had hospital appointment on thursday, took me about 90mins to get there with the traffic and the snow!! so when i eventually got there, the shutters were all down and i started panicing. Yep.. he wasnt there!! In the OR apparently, but then we found out he wasnt and he came down to check me out... seen him for about 5 mins i think He gave me a prescription for some silica jelly stuff that i cut into strips to apply to the thicker area of the scar, apparently its supposed to decrease the thickness, which I can actually say Ive noticed a difference in these past few days. Anyways, I have to book an appointment for the beginning of june, then he said that we can say from then I dont have to wear that horrible glove, alhamdulillah. I just hope my scar is less sensitive by then, insha'allah, otherwise it will be arkward

I found out on tuesday that the plant where I work are moving onto continental shifts, so 12 hour shifts... 7am-7pm or 7pm-7am, thats 3 on, 2 off, then 2 on, 3 off... it works out u working just 15days a month and working 2 weekends. My department hasnt decided what they are doing, theres only 5 ppl in the department but i think we are going to have to do it too.. so Im on the hunt for a new job which sucks really... Allahu alim.

Yesterday was a stat holiday for good friday... I went to jummah with a friend which was cool, then we went to the pictures in the evening to watch 300.. im still not too sure about but was ok, was fun... 4 hijabis watching a film hehe. So today I went to have my legs lasered... and u know what? It never hurt!! At all, the strength she was using she says she doesnt really use it until the 5th session on most people... so Im hoping that means I dont need too many cause I cant really afford another $325 for my legs... with my underarms, I have a few long hairs now... but thats it, so im hoping that means 1 more too insha'allah.

Anyways, thats my news really... spoke to my hanouni today :D hes gone home to Algeria for 10 days, back in UK next weekend, so was good to hear his voice, alhamdulilah he is fine. I also heard yesterday that my friends fiancee has his visa through, so insha'allah they should be having their nikah at the end of the month which is sooo exciting :D and also, as u prob all know.. Anisah has all her paperwork sorted, insha'allah everyone will be together with their partners soon (including me)

Well, Im off now.. going to look at some furniture in another city on the way to my mums... insha'allah I will hear from you all soon. Oh and Ive taken my blog off public... its been nerving me, all these people maybe reading my blog, but noone is replying.. so I made it private again, Allahu alim.

My life

Assalamalikum girls...

so the muslim guy, Dawood has been really nice when i see him and the other day he asked if I was going to some curling event work has organised this weekend. I told him I couldnt for reasons of college and the fact that Im not yet living in Cambridge, he was fine with that and told me he has told all his family about me and they wanted to meet me, masha'allah.

There has been a guy at work installing some new equipment and hes from Wales originally so was nice to hear a good accent and to speak without being asked to repeat myself a few times. It was funny we were just chatting about home, he asked if i was over here on my own then just said, so youre muslim then, I was like yeh! What else could i say, thinking back i should have said something like.. oh what gives it away cause it was pretty silent for a bit after that, but then we picked up the pace again

I went to the hospital yesterday for a checkup, the deep burn on the top isnt getting better he said, so i have to start covering it with polysporin and covering the burn. He put some on yesterday and when i took it off in the evening to make wudu subhanallah i couldnt believe it, the burn area had rapidly reduced from like 7 hours ago. I can feel it getting tighter now, so gonna have to really start the exercises. He also told me i couldnt wear this pressure glove until the area had completely covered over but the way that its healing i think that should be soon insha'allah. It was soo painful to get the glove on yesterday for sizing because the wound was still open and the glove is so tight. I have to wear it gradually at first and work up to 23 hours a day, she told me each glove last for about 3 months and they gave me 2 for alternation. But if it reduces and flattens any scarring im there, loading with duaa too obviously

Last bit of news, I was accepted for the apartment. I phoned her yesterday to see if she had heard anything so she casually said, oh u were approved. I was like, and u were going to tell me.... when??? But oh well, I have it and thats the important thing. Now i just have to start getting my stuff ready, got some boxes yesterday and started packing up my islamic books to store at a friends until after the move. Have to phone around a few places today to get my address then change a few things, car insurance, doctors appointment, blah blah. But its slowly moving alhamdulillah.... and tomorrow Im going for a little meal with some sisters and a video after insha'allah. So looks like its gonna be a busy weekend, I cant wait to move over there then i can have a relaxing weekend cause i havent had one of those in awhile.

Ok, now time for fajr and for getting ready for another work day, alhamdulillah. Take care girls, and keep in touch. Fi amenallah

My hand

Assalamalikum girls, i just wanted to say a big thank you to all of you for ur prayers It really was appreciated, and heard alhamdulillah.
I got to the hospital, they IVd me, sent me up to the OR eventually, then the dr came to see the burn. He opened the bandages, muttered a long oh, to which i start panicing... then he told me, i cant touch this its too healed... all skin, cant operate on skin. So im gonna send u home and we will look at u next thursday.... subhanallah.. Thanks once again girls, dunno wot i would do without u all.

Hand update

Assalamalikum girls... ok, so i said i would keep you up to date.. if anyone saw my msn name today i had a hosptial appointment to decide whether i needed a skin graft or not. Well apparently the doctors had already decided, they just wanted me to realise that i needed, which i still dont. Anyways, insha'allah im going in on Friday morning for the op, will be out by mid afternoon insha'allah with a cast on my hand to stop me doing anything (Care of my doctor who knows me oh too well) then the following thursday im going to get the cast cut off and checked, they will see whether it still needs to be bandaged up or left open.. then he said promising i dont do anything with it, i can start work on the monday (nov 20th) so im happy that i have a date, and that i have 2 wks off.

Oh on another note.. my friend took me to hospital and brought me home, when we were about 4mins from mine we were changing lanes and some loser was changin into the same lane, so my friend swerved to avoid him..... that was it, she lost control of the car... we went over all 4 lanes backwards & forewards in circles and everything eventually stopping off the highway in a little ditch. Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah... we couldnt believe it, no other car had hit us, her car was fine and most importantly we were fine, subhanallah.. he really was watching us alhamdulillah. Thats my news for today... im going to go relax now

Another update

Assalamalikum girls... so not much happens in my life now, just my bandages change and i get to see how different things look under there. Today was quite exciting, i got supplies delivered yesterday including non stick bandages alhamdulillah, the others have been ripping off my skin when i take them off. So i got to use all the new bits today heehee, how exciting!!! so anyways the burn on the top of my hand is actually starting to heal, i see pink skin and the nurse is very pleased with it, even said its healing pretty quickly alhamdulillah. I told her about the constant itching and the sharp shooting pains ive been having which apparently is new skin forming and old skin flaking away. So i was really pleased to hear all this, so i think i will be able to cope with the annoyingness (if thats a word) of the feelings alhamdulillah. Just wanted to let you all know, you have all been so kind in your words which i appreciate, insha'allah tomorrow ill take some uptodate pictures for those who want to see it. Keep writing girls, miss u all.

Hand update

Assalamalikum, so i went to the hospital yesterday which cost $60 each way, insha'allah ill get that money back. So i get to the plastics clinic and my doctor is in surgury so i go for a hot chocolate and a walk around. I finally see the resident at around 1040am she pulls off my bandages cleans it up a little, painfully may I add... takes a look at the burns, takes a few pics for the doctor to see and talked to me about it. Alhamdulillah she says she was expecting worse and that its going ok, she asks about pain, I tell her about the stabbing pains I keep getting on the deep burn at the top of my hand and the stiffness of the whole hand since they cut open the blisters. She says everything looks fine and that i should keep up with my exercises more so now, so Im trying to stay away from the computer cause my fingers dont actually move that much position wise. She also made an appointment for me to see the doctor next week and told me that was that. Im like.. hmm, ok, my questions now.. can i go back to work?? on modified duties?? obviously not back into the lab but admin work and such, she pulls a face and says she would rather i didnt cause the hand needed rest, elevation and not the opportunity to mayb be used unintentionally. So now im off work, and Im not going back to my old job which is a little sad cause well.. i wont see everyone, they are going out for something to eat next week and im trying to get there with them. Insha'allah things will work out for the best, Allahu alim. I phoned the agency and told them what has happened, he told me he would phone the guy at the job and explain that i might need to rest my hand the first few weeks.... insha'allah hes ok with this, im gonna email him now and see what he says. The hospital has also decided that i only need to change the bandages once a day, which is good so Im waiting for the nurse to come this morning. In the meantime im going to try for another shower insha'allah then tidy my room a little cause its a mess. dont really feel like cleaning up when u cant even use your hand properly im trying to stay on the positive side... i had a big freak out wednesday night after seeing some of the skin (looked like massive scarring, but found out it was dead tissue and after it being soaked yesterday the skin does actually look like its coming off alhamdulillah) and not being able to open a bottle of saline solution. Felt soo helpless and as some of u may know, i dont like relying on other people... hmmm wonder how h2b will cope with that when hes hubbie. Something to think about

Well, thats me signing off now girls... insha'allah hear from u all soon. Remember me, and the ummah in a similar position to me, in ur duaa for a quick and full recovery. Fi amenallah

My Eid

Assalamalikum, ok for those who havent heard... i had a pretty bad Eid. Allahu alim... so heres how it went. Sunday, I was contemplating taking the day off, but i didnt have the holidays and couldnt afford to take it without pay what with this new job coming up and whatever... so i go to work on monday. Lunch time comes and goes, and i get back into the lab.. im trying to get some work done before a girl comes who im supposed to be training because i dont follow the method for it, and dont want to go through the whole thing of explaining why because we arent supposed to change the methods. I had this issue when i first started, the guy before changed them but didnt tell anyone so i came to a brick wall when things didnt work cause 'they worked for him' so it was a case of argue until blue in the face or just change it and not tell them. So i took the latter option (easier) anyways, i was digesting a sample in sulphuric acid.. for those of you who dont know this acid check out this link it reacts with water to form a hot liquid and is quite corrosive. Ive done this digestion a million times since i started work 2 yrs ago... this time it just didnt go as it usually did.

Long story short i ended up spilling it on my hand my skin turned black and i ran straight to the sink... from then till about 3 hrs later my hand was kept numb from the cold water. But once it became unnumb, well lets say there were tears. i got moved to a hospital that specialises with burns about 15mins drive from the other hospital, first they told me they got in touch with the plastic surgeon which freaked me out. They said they didnt do anything, to phone burns. So i go to the burns unit, they tell me the other hospital didnt do what they should have done so had my hand under water for 1hr.. then doused it with cream and bandaged it up, then told me i needed to stay in for 24hrs for obs. I wasnt intending on telling my mum cause she would just freak and start makin it into a big issue, for me i saw no need for this, things couldnt be changed, Allah (swt) has his plans and i didnt think it was that bad. The burn started between my thumb and index finger on the back of my hand, and spread around into my palm and up my index finger. So it started blistering a little, so much so that i couldnt lift up my index finger for tashahud when i did get to pray. The night was boring, but alhamdulillah my friend came and brought me some stuff. So the next morning i was woken up at 730 to 'check things' subhanallah i could have kicked the nurse.. but then i was havin this weird stiffness in my upper arm and started worrying, until i remembered they gave me a tetanus shot at the first hospital, and its still hurting now. So the doctor came round and told them to burst the blisters and he would check me the next morning, im like u want me to stay in again?? hes like yeh, dont u want to?? i go, erm... NO!! he eventually gives in after i tell him i wont do anything

so alhamdulillah im at home now. Had the nurse come round yesterday and this morning to change my bandages, they see pink skin so its healing alhamdulillah. This morning its pretty tight and my exercises hurt more.. but i know i have to do them. Just wanted to keep u all up to date. Make duaa for a speedy and full recovery for me insha'allah, JazakAllah Khair girls. Fi amenallah,