Im still here :)

Assalamalikum and hellos to all you lot out there..

so its been far too long as someone mentioned in my last post.. January seems so far away when I got my lower braces put on. I want to blame it on the fact that blogger wont allow me to use a gmail address (which is just silly!) so I wont use blogger on my phone. However, its more than just that! I could come up with a million excuses but instead I will just fill you in on the last four nearly five months.

Can you believe its almost June already?? Half way through the year!! SubhanAllah... so whats been going on.. well braces are still on! A few adjustments have been made and Im very pleased with the results so far, so is my orthodontist who says he sees no reason why they shouldnt be off around September as planned :) Alhamdulillah, so Im really praying that it all goes smoothly from now on. I had a few problems last month with the wire sticking into the inside of my mouth, but the wire has been changed to a less flexible one now and my new mouth is coming along nicely :) I just remembered I have some photos of my molds on my phone of my teeth before, maybe Ill upload them later insha'Allah

There hasnt really been anything big happening to be honest, Chilli Tomato has found himself a new job alhamdulillah at Morrisons (supermarket) he starts today, so Im looking forward to seeing how that works out. After his probation he will be earning generally the same amount as his old job, for less hours and there is hardly any commute. 0.8 miles instead of 8 miles alhamdulillah. He rides his new bike, oh yeah, he bought a hybrid bike (mountain bike frame, racer wheels) after buying our mountain bikes purely for work reasons, to work and it takes him about 10minutes if that!! so hes very happy. He realised there is a gym that hes been to before and he liked just next door to his workplace AND there is a mosque around the corner Alhamdulillah!! Hes even more up to actually moving to the area, which would mean closer for me too when Im going to work at 0230... trust me, an extra 5 minutes in bed makes a world of difference!!!

In May we took a family holiday to North Wales, my old next door neighbour has a caravan there and they allowed us to use it for a little while :) It was amazing masha'Allah.. our first proper holiday together away from family :) We climbed Mount Snowdon, went to a mountain bike park, strolled along the beach.. It was quite an active holiday and I was suprised at how refreshed I came away from it all really, Im glad I married this guy partly for the reason that he is so active masha'Allah.. He has opened me up to many experiences since we married in 2009 and Im grateful to Allah (subhana wa ta'ala) for that. We share so many more hobbies now.. I got him into snowboarding and photography and he got me into mountain biking :) prefect combinations masha'Allah

Ive recently bought a kindle (well my mum will tell you she bought it for my birthday but whatever! ;P) and Im in love.. Ive been reading soo much since I got it (feel free to check me out at my Goodreads profile :)
Also, Ive started meal planning :) Im thoroughly enjoying cooking new things (I decided to cook at least 2 new things every plan), our plan is for 2 weeks and its settling into a good routine alhamdulillah.

Insha'Allah when I get a minute free I will upload some photos from whats been happening since I last wrote :) Wish I could upload my instagram photos onto blogger, like you can with facebook and twitter.. would make things good too :D

Anyways, time to get back to work I think.....
Keep commenting :)
Fi amenAllah
Ammena

In this time

On a side note, I cant believe its been over a month since we got back from Pakistan.. Im still reliving things by showing photos and handing out gifts to friends but the truth is.. we are back in UK :( I miss the family terribly and some things over there.

We recently booked our flights to spend some time in Canada during the holiday in December and January for 3 weeks, so we are both looking forward to that :D Then the next holiday hopefully will be just us, as there is a plan for bhai to get married in Pakistan the end of next year of beginning of 2013.. Allahu alim who knows where we will be by then, hopefully hubby will have his indefinite leave to remain in the UK by then insha'Allah :D

Currently in the middle of 2 stitching projects :) photos to follow
Peace and salams
Ammena

Onwards and upwards

So yes, we are home :) safe and sound alhamdulillah. Before I go into my diary writings of the past month there are a few blogs that I wanted to write with reference to different peoples pages that I have read recently. I could comment but one of them isnt totally what the person is looking for and the other one I dont want to write for view to everyone there as Im sure far many more people read hers than mine ;)
We are both back at work now so trying to get back into the routine, missing family but thankfully we sorted out the internet in his parents home while we are there and installed skype onto the home computer. Now we get regular phone calls from little sister for chats when she is bored on her own, which is quite often :) Alhamdulillah for the connection.
Im still without a new surah :( but feeling refreshed and ready for new things now the holiday is over. Its weird, we dont really have anything to plan for now which is nice, although we did book flights to Canada the other day for the end of December but thats far away and doesnt really need much money to save for (except for the car rental and little trips) In the meantime we have to sort out our finances and sort out our lives ;) insha'Allah one step at a time :D We would like to move sometime soon and for Chilli Tomato to get his driving license (I very much got used to him driving while we were in Pakistan) so hopefully it wont take too long for that.
So look out for a new post soon insha'Allah..... for the time being, I should probably get back to work shh
Peace and Salams
Ammena

So this time last year I was getting ready to say goodbye to my old lonely life on my own in a small bedroom with shared kitchen and hello to a life filled with another person (for now) in our own little flat away from everyone else. The day was a mad rush of getting last minute things from my old flat and moving them to the new and finding time to squeeze in chats with a dear friend who had travelled down for our nikah. In the end we (me and A) both turned up late for our own nikah but alhamdulillah it ended perfectly and we started our life together.

Im grateful for everything this year has given me, it hasnt all been sunflowers and rosy days and there are still many more of the unpleasant days in the near future. However we are still here, together and just as strong. Constantly learning about the other and surprising each other with tales and comments. We both know the other family alot more and have more communication between all of us alhamdulillah, we are now officially married to everyone (including the Home Office) and now we can start looking forward to a walimah in Pakistan and the first time I will meet the rest of my desi family insha'Allah.

I look forward to all the new things written for us in the future and pray we will never be separated insha'Allah.
Peace and salams
Ammena

My car

Woohoo.. look out for me whizzing around your local Asda

Here in my car.. la la lalala la la

Update

Yes, its been awhile.. I tried to blog yesterday but for some reason the computer wouldnt load the window properly. So here I am, at work reading through SOPs and periodically writing a sentence or two. I have a manual handling course with St Johns Ambulance to go to this morning, so my shift has been changed to a 6-2 I would have rather started earlier but thats ok :) Before I get into whats been happening with me, did y'all notice my blog rename?? hehee.. After coming into contact with so many gori (white) wives I thought I would incorporate that part of my life into the name of my blog as that is what I am a part of now alhamdulillah and always will be insha'Allah. My new family have welcomed me into their open arms since pretty early on in my 'relationship' with A alhamdulillah, they havent looked at the colour of my skin or the fact that I havent always been muslim. There have been tears and questions from both sides but they have always realised that he makes up his own mind masha'Allah and I was what he had made up. Insha'Allah soon I will get to meet them all and get to know them even better. Hubby is currently teaching me little phrases he thinks would be beneficial when we go over 'how are you?' 'I am fine' just little things that I keep having to go over and keep getting asked by his mum (well he keeps getting asked because I dont speak with her)
So whats been happening with us since the big day?? Well the only really interesting thing is that we got a car :) woohoo.. it was much needed with my 0230 morning starts, the £14 taxi one way was getting too much for our finances and the 75 minute bus ride home was getting too much for my mental state so alhamdulillah. We bought it on the Wednesday, picked it up on the Friday and by the Saturday it was already causing problems and had cost £130. On the Monday we took it back to where we bought it and he took it into the garage that he works with, five days and £350 less we picked up the car and alhamdulillah so far so good. It has enabled us to go shopping in Asda ;) which works out better for our pockets masha'Allah so we are very pleased little people :D We got AA cover last week and I drove to Great Missiden for a radioactivity protection course for 2 days, the scenery and the building was amazing.. the food, not so good and I was so grateful to be driving home on the tuesday evening.
Clocks have changed, I slept alot this weekend, caught up on some major stitching and baked hubby some cinnamon rolls that I know he loves :) Insha'Allah next weekend will be a major update.. of the good kind, Im not too sure but I will keep you up to date insha'Allah
Peace and salams
Ammena

:)

I'm now officially married to the whole wide world :D alhamdulillah. We had an amazing day and night with all my family and friends ;)


Ammena
Via BlogPress on her pretty cute iPhone

Good news??

Im welcoming it with open arms I can tell you that!! Ive been offered a new job alhamdulillah. It is the job I told you about in this previous blog, apparently the guy who was originally hired pulled out last minute. The supervisor sent me an email to give him a call this morning and at 1530 today I was officially offered the position. I was sooo excited, I got on the phone straight away to hubby who is very excited for me too. Its a good move for me work wise as my new title will be 'pharmaceutical manufacturing scientist' I will be working with anti cancer drugs, so its something that I will be using my degree for. I cant wait to get started insha'Allah.

Just wanted to fill you all in :D

My news

On Saturday hubby never heard the postman call to drop off a parcel than needed to be signed for, so I went off today to pick it up. We had absolutely no idea what it could be, my mum was supposed to be sending some things over for us but the card had hubby's middle name on, which Ive never told my mum. So that was quickly ruled out. When the guy passed it over to me in the post office I knew immediately what it was, first of all I could feel our passports ;) Alhamdulillah, it feels weird not having a passport around. Although I still have my Canadian passport here it was strange and I was nervous that they might lose it somewhere along the lines (the Home Office that is) As I walked to the road I felt the long envelope a little bit more, why use such a long envelope for just 2 passports?? Then I realised there was a longer piece of paper inside and remembered reading that we would get the passports back once the application was finished. On my way home hubby phoned me (after making me promise not to open it) I told him, its our passports and something else, can I open it? lol... so after pulling out our certificate of approval for marriage in the middle of Argos I tell him 'Congratulations, we can now get married legally' Alhamdulillah, I knew it would be ok but to have the piece of official paper in my hands seemed to lift a weight off my shoulders.
Until I saw the validity date which said that it expired July 2010 which gave us a space of 3 months. That was when I started freaking out... I know this needs to be done, but when I get things telling me it has to be done before a certain date, thats what I dont like!!
When I got home I read the notes that came in the envelope which told me that the certificate validity date was for the notice to marry. So basically we have to register and set a date to marry within that time which made me less freaked. Then I started looking at flight prices for around those times, because this is what my mum will be looking at! and they are astronomical!! :( school holidays, which is annoying.. so will have to see.
Going up north the end of May insha'Allah so maybe that will be when we tell the family, although dunno how Im going to tell my mum. Im trying to not think about it just yet, because I freak out when I think too much about things and hence all the different scenerios. However, not thinking about it means Im destined to push the date later by not doing anything... hummm
Suggestions? ;) Anyways.. Ive got a few recipes to type up for some sisters.. Enjoy
Peace and salams,
Ammena

Adult things

As some of you may know I dont like doing known 'adult' things much but this week I have been very adult like ;) I picked up my converted DVDs the other day from video.. tres old ;) but was good to see, hubby even mentioned that he would like to try sky diving one day after the snowboarding.. but it was stated that my 2 feet would be firmly grounded :( hes such a spoil sport ;)
Anyways, we also bought a new bed frame.. the one that was in the flat basically wasnt included in the flat.. it was left by the previous tenant for obvious reasons. It was falling apart! we have kept it together for these past 3 months (how time has flown by) but it was time and I think he also wanted to have a sturdy piece of furniture we could call our own. We bought it will some of the wedding money (tried to pay it all with it, but something went wrong with the visa gift card we had) so thanks to the lady involved alhamdulillah.
Today we went to check out the car boot sale at a school near where I used to live.. we also popped into the city centre and got ourselves a new shower curtain (wasnt shopping for it but it was on offer and we both liked it)
I just put up a new frame in the living room (check out FB if youre on my friends list) and I think it looks really well in the space.. Im loving how the flat is turning out, I would like a little more space but alhamdulillah its fine for us :D
Just wanted to check in with you all :) Back to Bones now :)
Peace and salams
Ammena

Today

Salam,
so its wednesday morning, Im working at 12 insha'Allah so it gives me plenty of time to catch up on things in the morning. The downside is that it means a lot longer without dh :( but alhamdulillah at this time in the recession I have a job and thats the important thing.
I woke up early this morning, although in my book I have had over 10 hours sleep so its not really early hubby just constantly asks why so early when I dont have to be up really until around 1030 lol... Ive made some finishing touches to some little things, I finished my packing last night and Ive just made some coconut cookies for hubby :) which he has grown to love and to be honest I love cooking them too... so win win really. They have just finished so before I get changed and make lunch I decided to apply for a few jobs and write a new blog. I miss out on so much through being away from my laptop, Im actually taking it to Canada with me so insha'Allah Ill be able to catch up on some things there although Im not intending on being still for too long lol. I have lots planned and I cant wait to see some of you girls (well actually I think its just Ms eyeS but thats enough for me alhamdulilah) I have plenty of meals organised, some sight seeing, plenty of shopping, walks, and general chill out sessions with peeps that I havent seen since leaving Canada. Oh and plenty of snowboarding, which also means plenty of photos and videos per hubbies request :D I wish he could come with me, but Allahu alim. I just pray he uses the time wisely and has plenty to show/tell me when I get back here. I know Im going to miss him terribly but thats something that cant be avoided and this isnt something I plan to repeat in the future.
I ordered some stuff for my mum to take over to Canada, they tried to deliver it yesterday but noone was home so Im hoping that its back there today and Im going to try to find the place. They say leave 72 hours for it to get back.. but I dont have that amount of time and this has to be sorted, so be prepared Royal Mail ;) I was also asked to take over some stuff to send to a cousin of a work collegue, now I know what people feel like being asked to take stuff 'back home' lol... its amusing, but the stuff she wanted sending is really heavy and I hope it doesnt cost too much to send over there insha'Allah
Anyways, I should get ready to leave soon... if I want to find this place in time insha'Allah... take care peeps, this will probably be the last time I blog before I leave the UK. Gonna miss Mina's leaving party :( but Ill see her and everyone soon insha'Allah
Fi amenallah, peace and salams
Ammena xxx

More photos

So I thought I would take this quiet opportunity to upload some more photos from New years eve...  Enjoy :D we had such fun, yes it was cold, yes we waited over 4 hours but to see the look on his face when the fireworks started.. it was definately worth it.. and he promised we dont have to do it again except maybe when our kids are older, but then we will come out later and be much warmer ;) insha'Allah

Im back

Assalamalikum ladies,
so yes Im back from the long weekend with my mum and by long I mean Friday to Monday not long in the mental sense of the word.. although it does come to mind too lol. So it started on Friday, I left about 615 from my flat after a long farewell to hubby and a lil Eid gift from me and a 'dont go yet' from him... it was mentally painful to be pulled away from him on our first Eid together as man and wife and I wont be doing that for a long time insha'Allah. I picked up my mum at Gatwick and we drove over to Oxford with the usual mutterings and random conversations that we both involve ourselves in. It was nice alhamdulillah, I hadnt told her that A was coming over yet.. well I had asked her and she had sort of left it open to me so I hadnt given her a date. I wont bore you with the depressing writing of going through my dead uncles personal belongings, the tears, the questions, the findings, the threats, the feelings of rummaging through a charity shop because I do believe that is personal but I just wanted to give you an idea there. This was the baby of 9 children from my grandparents and he was just 8 years younger than my mum so they grew up together along with another brother inbetween the two.
Anyways, Friday night she asked me about A... so I told her, hes coming tomorrow which is when the Spanish inquisition started. Wheres he from? where are his parents living? is he using you? do you have to change religions for him? she was shocked that his parents knew about me because she had it in her head that him (being pakistani and muslim-although the muslim bit was an assumption on her part!) that he couldnt be involved with anyone outside 'his own' as she nicely put it. She worries about me, I get that... but how would I know if he was only after a passport unless I knew him after he has his passport lol :D It was funny, I had a semi strong conversation with her about the fact that yes A is pakistani and yes A is 6ft1.. her answer? 'but Pakistanis arent tall' and she just kept repeating it until we both laughed and she commented 'so hes going in the loft then yeh?!' lol :) was a breakthrough
We picked him up early Saturday morning and they had the little small talk chat that you can have with one person in the back and one in the front. He asked how her flight went, if she had always lived near Toronto over there the usual things really. I felt a strain though and prayed it wouldnt be like this all day, my two cousins turned up around 11ish I think, I introduced them to him too.. I wasnt worried about these two, I knew they wouldnt be bothered by any outward physical issues (colour of skin, accent, blah blah) so I was completely comfortable with them being around him. And I was right, they both loved him and his accent, of course when we were all together that evening there was a little conversation about him, and again the passport issue came up. My cousins couldnt sit there for that and chipped in that it could happen to anyone and that if you found the right person that it didnt matter and you would never know unless u gave it a try, alhamdulillah I was so glad they were there.
Before the Saturday was over me, my mum and A went for some food and took it back to our hotel to eat before I took A back to the train station. When he was getting up to leave she decided to use that time to warn him and to make him promise to look after me, which I have no doubt of alhamdulillah. They had a little natter too about how my mum was when she was younger compared to me as he told her he was shocked at how active she was lol :D thats my mum ;) She even asked if he was coming back the next day which I thought was a good sign, all in all it was a good day for A with my mum and for that Im grateful Alhamdulillah.
The rest of the weekend passed pretty much the same as the friday except with a little bit of shopping and more tears, questions and anger. Understandable really when you think my mum has come all the way from Canada to sort out the house when my uncle who lives about 20mins away cant be bothered because he has what he wants. But I wont go into that.
It took me 2.5 hours to drive my mum to her hotel yesterday, which was a nightmare especially when I had another 45 minutes to drive home to my husband after that but oh well. I left her in a few tears with a 'look after youself and be careful' to which I repeated her words with a 'love you' thrown in to give her some comfort. She texted me this morning to tell me she had gotten in to Canada fine but now begins another stage for her as her father in law passed away in Florida over the weekend. So they will be driving to Buffalo tonight for the funeral on Wednesday afternoon :( may God look over and protect them all Ameen.
And me? well after unloading my car of all the bits and pieces I took from my uncles that was going to get thrown away to remind me of him, me and A went to IKEA seeing as we had the car and bought a new coffee table which he lovingly made up last night before coming to bed at a very late time considering he had to be up at 430 for work. Needless to say I think he was probably a little late this morning lol :D If hes reading this... I missed you way too much this weekend...

Anyways thats me for now.. Ive got an interview this evening in Stevenage (yes far!) but Allahu alim right?! insha'Allah it will work out good whatever way. Peace and salams
Ammena

How things are going

Its been a little while and I have meant to post pictures but I just havent gotten around to it. When I get home from work, sometimes Ill turn my computer on but its not really to do things its more to just browse and catch up although I am totally caught up on facebook via my iphone. So thats why its taken me awhile, I had a girl post a comment on my previous blog that needed an email reply and that took me a few days to do for which I apologise and am totally remembering how I said I wouldnt change in my internet doings after I get married lol :D However I love it and would give up so much more for the happiness Im feeling right now, well maybe not right now... as Im working 12-8 tonight (why Im doing this now before leaving for work) which means I wont see him for over 15 hours which hurts to even just think about it :( I think Im going to seriously start looking for a job closer to home after this year or the next few weeks are over with.
So whats new? well for my first free weekend since I got married my mum will be over here :( blah... Im taking her to my uncles house to finalise all his paperwork.. its totally unnecessary but its something that she feels guilty about not doing and I wont hear the end of it if she doesnt do it. Yes its over Eid weekend, which also means the first Eid as husband and wife I wont be with my husband which hurts me to the core and Im not happy about. I keep trying to remember all the Eids in the future insha'allah that we will both be apart of so thats what is keeping me going. I wanted my mum to meet A on this trip, but since mentioning that Ive met someone to her she hasnt said one thing about him. Now it looks like he might be working a few extra hours but I still want him to be there and I dont know how to go about it all. Man, parents are soo annoying... the one person who I thought would have problems with A is the one person who asks how he is and sends his regards in every phone call (my Grandad) so I cant wait for them to meet. Trying to figure out about going up north for Xmas to meet the other side of the family too, its just gonna be cramped and I dunno how to approach the subject with my dad.
As a side note remembering what Ms EyeS mentioned about using this opportunity to lavish and describe my new status and the things he does for me.. well, I might just do that and tell you ladies that he treats me like a princess alhamdulillah. He wont let me do much for myself and I love being outside with him, hes always to hand and protects me without even thinking. He walks next to the road, even when I position myself there he unknowingly moves to the other side so Im not next to the road, I never realised it would be this... comforting... natural.... easy Alhamdulillah.. with hardship comes ease right? Alhamdulillah.
Anyways, its nearly time for me to leave for work and I got to take the washing out the machine.. insha'allah Ill be back real soon... Peace and salams

Bits

Assalamalikum wa rahmatulahi wa barakatu,
insha'allah this post finds you all in the greatest of health and faith (no matter what faith) so its been awhile since I last posted.. its now my weeks anniversary of being a wife and I have to say Im loving it so far. Ive been reading many blogs over the years of wives and family blogs and also I have researched alot (not always intentionally) about talking about ones marriage amongst people, even friends. So I will not be changing this blog into a 'my husband is so good, he does this this and this and never makes me lift that' because there are many people out here on the blogging world who will give in to jealousy and I do not wish to be apart of that. That is not my intention so forgive me and feel free to point it out to me if I go in that direction.. so for now I just wanted to give you a low down on some things that have been happening with us. I also wanted to give more details on my henna night but I feel that Rainbow, Humble muslimah and Happy muslim Mama have done a fantastic job so I direct you to read their blogs and comment there insha'allah I know they would love to read them. I also wanted to show you some of the cards that HMM made for myself and my new husband.. not all of them of course ;) bless her masha'allah.. I also wanted to pass on to Ms EyeS that we talked about you at the henna party, HMM asked who I knew on the blog world and your name came up, guess what!! she reads you too hun! so you aint just writing for me, although I love reading your blogs as like the letters you used to write to me. Which Im waiting for more of by the way lol :D
Ive added a few generic pics here and its time for bed.. so insha'allah I will add more to this tomorrow cause Im off for the whole day and who knows whats planned.. its supposed to be bad weather so maybe it will be staying in day :D Allahu alim. Just to thank everyone who was involved in my last few weeks, I will remember u always with the fondest of memories alhamdulillah

Waiting....

... for many things.... my friend to arrive from Huddersfield (shes stuck in London traffic at Heathrow) ... to move my final bits.... to get into my dress and take pictures... to get the nikah done... to eat, sitting next to my husband... to get back to our flat to start our life together... to get this first week over with... but Im not wishing time away, Im enjoying it all alhamdulillah

PS shout out goes to my homie Rainbow for organising my special henna party last night

When will I be back?

I have no idea... it wont be over the next few days thats for sure... Im writing this just before I go to bed. Ive just given myself a very lame pedicure, reminded myself why I stopped buying home waxing kits (because they never seem to work on me) and had a ton of food trying to get rid of it from the fridge and freezer. I should be looking at sleeping now, Im working till 12 tomorrow and then Im gonna come back to my hospital pad, pray, eat a lil and pack some things that A wants me to take to the flat tomorrow. Then Im going to get the bus to the flat, drop them off (by which time our mattress should have been delivered giving his brother something to do while hes over here) then take the tube over to East London for my henna party later that night. Im going to take a wander around the shops, see if I can see this Quran for one thing and maybe pick up a few little bits while Im there. So thats my friday night, when Im finished at my henna party I will be coming back to the hospital were 2 of my bessie mates from up north will already be here insha'allah. Who knows what time they will have me up until ;) fun times.. then Saturday Ill be doing stuff with them including taking them to my flat and sprucing up a little over there, then about 6ish will probably make our way over to London for the nikah just after isha.
Saturday night we are staying at our flat, then Sunday I will probably come back to Kingston to get my keys off them and drop them into reception at the hospital.. then Im officially moved out :D Sunday and Monday night we are away at a hotel, back tuesday afternoon and not in work until 12pm Wednesday afternoon woohoo... so maybe late next week or next weekend Ill fill you in somewhat. Im hoping insha'allah that I will be able to upload a few pics on to facebook over the MIA stage of my life so keep a lookout those on my friends list :D
Peace and salams,

What Ive been up to

Its been a busy old time thats for sure, I dont really get much time to blog or do much on my computer these days except look for flats when Im not out of my current place. However, dont fret my friends it wont be that way when Im married insha'allah.. its just like this now because Im not spending time indoors with A so when hes here then Im not at home :) We have been to see 2 and he went on a mission yesterday stopping at all different estate agents to see what they have. Currently we are waiting to see 2 properties that are both in the midst of being redecorated for new tenants. So I will keep you up to date.
We went looking at wedding rings yesterday and before anyone jumps on my back about this I really want him to wear one just so that people he encounters on a daily basis will know that hes married and (Ive seen it!) back off... or so I hope they will. Hes a big handed person though (size Y) so we cant even really try anything out for him in the shops because they dont generally stock them. Which was the same problem with my ring because I have such tiny fingers lol :)
Im trying to organise a little get together with some friends the night before my nikah as a final thing :) so far I have 12 people who can definitely come which is a shock for me and there are also 3 people who I have to get in touch with.. but insha'allah they can come too :) I would love to have them all there. Im thinking to check out some places on Edgware road, seems to be the easiest place for everyone really and its mostly halal stuff.. so we will see insha'allah.
So far my room is still a mess after bringing more things back from the north with me that just wont fit anywhere, Im working at 12 today and had intended on tidying up but guess what Im doing instead!! ;) not tidying thats what lol. But insha'allah maybe when I get home tonight I will be able to get some of it done.
My mum is intending on coming over to go through some of my uncles possessions in November, so basically I will be carting her around everywhere and bored out of my skull. Im really not looking forward to it, my cousin said she would try and come down too but I doubt it would make it any easier to deal with. I was hoping to introduce her to A insha'allah, Im just having a hard time coming out with it at the moment, it seemed so much easier to the other side of my family. When I was talking with my cousin the other day she made a comment that it shouldnt be easier to tell my mums friend about a 'potential boyfriend' than my own mother.. but thats how it is.. I pray it will be easier and I will be able to just come out with it before she comes over. I have to email her the dates Im not working in November to give her options and just pray she decides against it lol...
Oh and Ive joined twitter, follow me on http://twitter.com/AmmenaB but please tell me where you got the link from, otherwise I will block you :) and please... if youre male, dont even bother, I will block you!
And thats it for now, Im going to get myself ready while I wait for the call from the estate agents insha'allah. Peace and salams

Yesterday

So I met a best mate of mine at Heathrow yesterday, it was soo good to see her again after so long. She had both kids with her, and I bought A :) was good to finally have someone meet him... her words 'is he usually this quiet?' his words 'shes really hard to understand, I think I gave up in the end' a perfect match masha'allah... they both mean the world to me so its important that they see good in each other which I think they did alhamdulillah :D we chilled for awhile, I fed the kids a lil and the mum too :D Oh and A aswell ;) me? dont be silly hehee. I left her about 9.30 when she got picked up by a mutual sister and headed for home, I got back about 1140pm so was a late night.
I was going to grab an hours sleep after work, but decided to head into Kingston to pick up a few things to go with my recipe watching that Ive been doing. Rocky road cookies, orange and choc muffins, bread, flapjacks all sort of things that I want to try out insha'allah. I stopped at Asda for a few things, then made my way around Wilkinsons to get to the cashier and realise I had left my debit card at home in the skirt I wore yesterday! silly fool!!! I had picked up quite abit too and was pleased that it hadnt come to that much. Oh well, Allahu alim
Booked a car for the weekend to drive me back to Liverpool to see the family for a wee while, I havent been up since I moved down here and although Im perfectly happy with that Im sure they arent. Although I wouldnt know... I texted my dad, grandad and auntie to tell them I was coming up the beginning of the week... who knows if my dad got the message but Im sick of waiting around for him and Im going to make plans without him. Allahu alim. Insha'allah when Im up there I can pick up my bits from Wilkinsons and do some more shopping too.

Oh, and I have a date for my nikah insha'allah... nov 7th :D I have to phone up the masjid and discuss it with the skeikh but insha'allah it will be ok. Now its down to planning things properly, whos coming, the party before (if im having one) the infamous covering of my arms, a place to live! nightmare!!! Apparently his friend from Pakistan wants to come over for it too... lets see how that works out, I kinda hope he does cause I always feel bad that he doesnt have many people to talk to over here... I guess I have to put up with his talking then lol (that comment is for him hehe)
Ok, now Im off... just wanted to fill you in on the stupid things I do apart from burning my pans ;) Im also finishing the 4th day of my Shawaal fasts :D alhamdulillah.. how is everyone doing with that? insha'allah you are using it to the best of your ability. Just imagine the reward of fasting one whole year for just 6 days extra subhanallah... truly the most merciful!!
Peace and salams,

Confessions....

.... I ruined a new pan the other day again (I do it the same way all the time) with mushrooms!! for Pete's sake.. mushrooms!! probably one of mine, if not my, favourite vegetables of all times... gutted? yup!
.... I cried during Eid salah the other week. Dont ask me why, it just happened, I didnt feel stupid. Infact I actually felt a little relieved to actually have been affected by it that much alhamdulillah
.... I want to be married, now! Once Ive made a decision I dont really like waiting for an outcome, which is what I have to do until A's bro comes over in November... it just feels too far away, although we have a million things to sort out before then, I would rather be married now and sort that out later. Allahu alim