Assalamalikum girls... ok, back from taraweeh.. and im not impressed not by the performance but by the togetherness of my community, there were less women there than for jummah.. there was 5 including me left after 8 rakahs and even after they left you could still hear them giggling and talking. Astagfrillah... but was ok, they had different brothers doing 4 rakahs at a time, so insha'allah they will be rewarded for the recititation.

Question time: when is it allowed to sleep during the day?? You see Im working days for a few weeks during Ramadan inhsa'allah so I can go for taraweeh.. taraweeh means I get home about 11ish (i got home later today cause i stayed for witr) but i will be up around 515 for suhur.. then staying up after that because Im working at 7am so no point in really trying to get more sleep. So I was thinking.. well maybe I can sleep after I get home.. I finish work at 3 but then I thought well not much sleep time between then and asr.. how about between asr and maghrib but Im sure I read something that we arent supposed to sleep between those two salah. Anyone got any ahadith???

Jazakallah khair, Ammena

Im going to the doctors to have 2 moles removed at the end of the month. Allahu alim. Make duaa for me girls insha'allah..

And for everyone, Ramadan mubarak. I woke up for fajr this morning alhamdulillah, although a little later than i wanted.. I still got to make some scrambled eggs for myself, throwing them down my neck as the adhan was playing.. I have to look into whether we are supposed to fast from the adhan start.. usually I do finish a few mins before, and insha'allah I will be forgiven for this little rush :) I think Im realising that this month is long over due now and I cant wait to go to the masjid for jummah and for taraweeh this weekend insha'allah.

Fi amenallah

Its been awhile

Assalamalikum everyone,

so its been awhile since my last blog. Im not apologising though, my life has been pretty hectic lately and not in a pleasant way. Ive been booking train tickets for my forth coming trip back to UK which Im still excited about and looking forward to meeting up with some friends insha'allah.

As for the not exciting things, my mum was taken into hospital with suspected kidney stones.. they let her out with medication, until the pain just got too much for her and the friday after she was back in hospital with either burst appendix or rupture bowel pockets. They still dont totally know whats wrong with her and its now 3 weeks later, although she went to the doctors today and he thinks its more burst appendix, the infection had become a mass of infection across the whole of her cavity and she is lucky to still be here today alhamdulillah.

She celebrated her 50th birthday in hospital which she was really bummed about and I spent most of those few weeks visiting and phoning her. Subhanallah its so hard to do from 90mins drive away. Anyways, the day of her 50th birthday I phoned my grandad, my nana (grandmother) had been taken into hospital the week before and I was just checking up... he gave me the number to phone her bedside. My dad had already told me the day before that she had problems talking and it left her out of breath, he gave me the number at 7pm GMT so I told him i would phone her durin the day tomorrow when she might be feeling better. The next day i plodded around in the morning doing my bits, had a shower got out and saw my grandad had left me an msn message... so i wrote back and he said he was going to phone me. It was actually my aunties husband I spoke to and in a short story he told me my nana had died around 10pm the evening before. I knew before he even told me she had gone forever out of my life. The next few days where a whirl wind of booking tickets, sorting work out and picking my mum up from the hospital on the 30th

I went back to UK last week for 6 days for the funeral, it was horrible.. nice to see family, but horrible to see them in the state that they were in. I think I bonded more with my dad in that short space of time and insha'allah it will be remembered. Ive talked to them a bit since i got back to Canada, but i just feel so helpless and useless, although even when I was there I just didnt know what to say to my grandad, hes constantly up and down as expected and all I want to do is protect them all, but I cant and it pains me so much to not be able to.

Anyways, I cant sit here crying at work.. so Im signing off for now. Just to let you all knwo, Im still here.. with a much shorter friend list alhamdulillah and awaiting Ramadhan.

Fi amenallah, Ammena

Assalamalikum,

insha'allah everyone is ok. Its been a busy day today... first of all I woke for fajr alhamdulillah then at 9am I went for my laser treatment and I can tell you my legs hurted more today than the previous 2 times Ive been. She said sometimes it takes a few goes for an area to react but what was strange was that my underarms have reacted really well to the treatment alhamdulillah. So my next appointment is when I come back from my travels back to UK, I thought this was the best way fiancially as really I should have got it done the week before I leave. Insha'allah it will be ok.

While I was there my stepdad called my phone twice which I thought was strange but then I thought it was something about my mums bday (shes 50 in a few weeks) and we are trying to organise a little close friends thing. So he left a message and while I was turning myself over I listened to his message, it was weird.. cause when he initially rang I thought somethings happened to my mum, but then I pushed that aside and told myself to not be so negative. Ladies... Allah (subhana wa ta'ala) told us to trust our gut, my mum has been taken into hospital and they didnt know what was wrong with her. So Ive been on pins and needles all day waiting to hear news, shes been for tests, scans, given drugs to ease the pain subhanallah.. in the end they sent her home around 1830 (she had been there since around 0900) after a CAT scan told them she has a kidney stone. And also that she has not just 1 cyst on her ovary, but 2... I dont know why they didnt see this before. She has been booked in for her hysterectomy the day before I leave for UK but Allah (subhana wa ta'ala) knows best. Insha'allah she is in safe hands.

So my friend arrived for a visit from America.. dont want to say her name, dont know whether she will allow me I havent seen her for a few years so it was good to see her again alhamdulillah. Shes staying at mine tonight and we are goin to do some chillling tomorrow insha'allah, its funny she asked if there was anything I wanted to do and she told me when we used to get together we would always do something islamic even if it was just checking out the islamic shops. That made me smile, to think that thats one of the things she remembers abotu our get togethers and not something nasty or horrible alhamdulillah.

Anyways, Im nearly finishing work soon... just not got a lot to do which is why I wanted to get all this written down and ask for your duaa for my mum and our family, and for a safe trip home for my friend insha'allah. If youre home when youre reading this sis... I had a really good time, but I do miss you loads

Fi amenallah

Truly the most merciful

Salam girls... alhamdulillah, he truly does help you in your hour of need. So I found out a few weeks ago that I had been invited to the christening of the little boy whos mum ticked me off the other week. I didnt particularly want to go but I thought, there aint any getting out of this.. so Allahu alim, whats planned is planned.

Let me explain a little about my work hours before I carry on: so I work mondays-fridays 3pm-11pm however we have started to provide weekend coverage, this entails someone out of the 2 departments involved coming in for an 8hour shift on saturday and sunday and being on call for those two days too. With these 2 days worked you can take them off in the near future, usually ppl take them off the thursday and friday of that week because 10 days straight is a long time to work. I had intended on using them for my holidays in October as I am flying out on the wednesday, we pick the weekends we want to work and usually it works out as once in around 3 months

So... I just by chance look at the timetable to see when Im next working which I thought was in October, to find Im actually scheduled to work the weekend of the christening, the christening being on the sunday at 1030am.. so Im like, oh I cant work then.. and changed it to the following weekend. Then I went home and thought.... I dont really think of what Im doing when at work and I realised... here is my chance to have a legitimate excuse to not have to go to the christening ALHAMDULILLAH so the next day, I changed it back to that weekend and I told my mum this weekend that I was scheduled to change. She was obviously upset and apparently I was too (this is what she told the lady) so I told her I would try to sort it out.. so looks like I dont have to go to the christening after all... Thank you God